Of late, I have really been thinking, how old am I, where am I in life?
I can't believe it, I have crossed 25, that's like a quarter of a century!!! Inside my head, in my heart, I still feel like I am a girl, or a young lady. But not a woman. I mean, at least not in the way I behave, not in the way I live life. There's so much I want to do, there's so much I enjoy, I feel like I am a girl!!! I could say I am a young woman, but I just can't picture myself becoming an "Aunty ji" woman as per the eastern traditions.
5 years down the line, I will be over 30! And the way the clock is ticking, I won't be surprised if it's 5 years later when I finish this blog entry! That sounds old, but I don't feel like I am old. What's wrong?
I want to be the little girl of the house, I want, I want, I want. I think about myself, I dream about myself, there is so much excitement, so many plans, so many desires. And I tell myself, "O I am going to do all that in due time". Psychologically, I would like to say I am 23, there are so many 20ish things that I want to do, keep planning to do, have been doing! Now that I am on the other half of the 20s, the half that is nearer to 30 than to 20, I feel like my biological age is old, but my body doesn't show the signs, nor does my head, neither does my heart.
O God, can somebody just fast forward my birth year by 3 or 4 years, so that my biological age rewinds back to the psychological me???
Help! Is there any other young lady out there who's actually a girl living in a young lady's body with a woman's biological age? Complicated eh!
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i am 38 who feels not a day older than 13 so there!!
ReplyDeleteits how young you feel that counts, always!