Right things should happen at the right time

Like they say time and tide waits for none. I find myself in that position today.

I wasn't able to start working at the right time in life, I had the right education but immigration problems. Then I moved. Today, I have the wrong education and no immigration problems. And all this while, time ticking..

It is important to do the right thing at the appropriate time. Especially in Asian culture, the plan is all planned out for us by society, when to finish school, then college, then work, then marriage, children, the whole thing is set out. And when we're part of that society, it is difficult to gain respect if you fall out of step, if you get delayed in doing things which your peers are already doing, it limits your choices and narrows down opportunities.

And everyone faces this in one respect or the other, sometimes because of wrong decisions, sometimes because of external causes.

I feel a little tired of my patience, I am over a quarter century old now, how much more do I need to study before I can be eligible to seek employment, I guess because I was at the wrong place wrong time, a mismatch between academics and place.

In my bowl of life, what I haven't been able to achieve, is the employment bit. It was out of my hands, I was one of the bright ones in class, I got selected for the right interviews, but my immigration status was a real handicap. Now I am in another land, where it doesn't matter as to how bright I was in an irrelevant course, and I have to begin again from scratch.

I always had this kind of experience in academics, life got thrown upside down on multiple occasions, but I always came up to the challenge and continued doing what I wanted. Thing is, we have to honestly believe that we deserve all the problems that come our way, and we have to come out of those problems without troubling somebody else, that is my philosophy of life.

But I feel a little tired, 5 years is a long time. 5 years ago I first felt like spreading my wings, and I am yet to do it 5 years on. Sometimes I don't feel like explaining my academic headaches to people, sometimes I explain and wonder why I spoke so much.. I am also aware that in my pursuit of being right, I made certain choices, I could have got a work permit if I helped a firm with tax evasion accounting, I refused to start my career on such notes, it is like I chose to miss some buses in life. Being right is never easy, one has to do it the hard way.

Still, I will feel like a loser if I tell myself that I have given up. I like to tell myself that I am slow because of destiny, but who knows, slow & steady wins the race, and I am still running! ;-)

Sometimes I am convinced that I didn't pray hard enough, because I did get whatever I prayed for, perhaps this will happen right if I pray to/beg/seek from God? :-)